im not an effing stepford wife!..

Why do some men want robbots as companions? To clean them, feed them, but most important keep their mouth shut? In my opinion( and i have lots) that would get a little boring. These men feel if they go out into the world and york for 40 to 45 hours a week us womenfolk need to be their slaves. Ladies i dont mean just maids, oh no. They expect immaculate house, dinner on the table, well behaved chidren, and after all that a sexual goddess.  Thats nice. In my opinion that is not the contract i signed. I can do my best, and i will, but im not perfect.  I am messy. I am laid back. I am usually a sex kitten but at the end of the day trying to be everything else for him has left me exhausted and a little resentful. I didnt chose to be this. He did not marry this. He is trying to turn Carrie Bradshaw into Charlotte York.  So my point question is: "am I in the wrong for not wanting to change who I am? Is it right for them to expect us just to drop all our plans and integredy to be at their becck aand call?  My man works hard, and i understand and appreciate that so much but that is not grounds for demanding a perfect spouse. I do my best and some days im a sucky wife but at least i try. Even though i try im starting to feel like i am just not good enough.

mommy needs a break!

It just keeps getting even more interesting. Brooklyn apparently did not get the sleeping gene from me. I love sleeping...she hates it. I value my sleep. Its up there with wine and scary movies. The last couple of nights have been torture because she has learned to pull herself up.  She wakes up about one o'clock in the morning screaming bloody murder and nothing will soothe her! I do not know if its scary to get down but when i lay her down she just stands back up! Last night she cried for two hours straight and then was full of energy all today! I am hella tired and need some sort of mom vacay!